Life Update & Future Plans

Happy Sunday! I’m so excited to finally bring you a new post this week. Life has been kind of crazy lately, with a lot of stuff going on around me, so it has been hard for me to find time with my computer. However, things seem to be getting calmer and settled now so here I am!

If you follow me on twitter you might already know this but…I finally have a job! I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am for this. Is it my dream job? No. I’m going to be working at a call center. Is it something I can see myself do for a long time? Not really. It is a start though and that’s all I really need at this point.

Back in July, I wrote a post about my goals for the end of the summer and not so long ago I admitted I was not able to do anything on that list in time and how disappointed/frustrated I was with myself. Now, I’m finally able to check “Getting A Job” off of that list. I know we are now in November and, trust me, I’m still mad this took me so long but I’ve been trying to look at the positive side of situations lately. That all glass half full and not half empty thing.

Having this job will give me the opportunity of saving money to go to college (hopefully by next year) and being able to buy things for myself. Not only this, but I think having my day filled with something will be good for me. Getting out of the house for a bit and having my mind busy with something is what I’ve been needing for a while.

What’s Next?

Now I want to complete the rest of my “summer” goals. I want to start my weight loss journey and work on my mental health. I know these two things are on my mind a lot and I need to change that. I’ve always had a hard time with handling these issues and I really want to change that. It won’t be easy but I need to at least try!

I also want to work on actually having a proper schedule. It’s no secret that I’m not really good with posting on time – for a lot of reasons – and with now having a job plus everything I want to do at the same time it will be tricky.

I’ve been thinking of maybe posting once a week, either Saturday or Sunday since I won’t be at work. I can work on my posts throughout the week and by the time the weekend comes around I’ll already have something in the works.

Besides this, I just want to relax! I’ve been feeling so stressed with many things for so long and I just want to find some way to escape from time to time. I don’t know what I’ll do yet but hopefully something will come to me soon enough.

I can’t tell that by December I won’t have a post about how I’m consistently disappointing myself because I won’t be able to live up to what I want to do, because maybe it will happen. What I can tell you is that if I do write that post I’ll upload it, get up and try again.

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Personal Goals For The End Of The Summer

I’ve briefly discussed this on my post about The Problem With Job Interviews so as you might already know I’m unemployed. Today I’ve been sending some resumes with the hopes to change that and this lead me to start reflecting on my summer this year.

I haven’t been doing many productive things to be completely honest. Me and my family were moving out for a bit but that doesn’t really excuse my laziness this year. I have not gone out with any friends all summer and I barely leave the house. A lot does have to do with some more personal events that have happened recently, but I’m sick of it by now. I’m just home all day, cooking and cleaning the house and taking care of the animals while everyone else is out either working or actually having fun.

I have now decided that I want to change the way my life has been going for some time now. That is what I want to tell you about in this post. Summer is almost done now – we have pretty much a month left – so here’s three things I want to get done or start the process of getting it done by the end of the summer.

Get A Job

I don’t know how believable this might sound to the general public but I really want to get a job. Yes, having my own money is definitely one of the reasons. In fact, it’s quite an important reason if I want to go to college anytime soon. But it isn’t the only reason. I’m really tired of not doing anything so getting out of the house, even if it’s for work, sounds like the greatest time for me right now. I’m sure I’ll change my mind by the time I actually start working with a set schedule but it’s still highly important for me to get a job before I turn 20 in September.

Getting a job will help me save money for college and my driver’s licence, buy things for myself without depending on my parents money and with the other two goals that I have.

Start My Weight Lost Journey

To be quite honest, my weight lost journey has started and stopped a couple of times by now. This time around though, I really am going to try to commit to it. I don’t really want to lose a lot of weight – maybe 15 kilos which is around 33 pounds I believe – and I also do not expect to lose all of it by September. I want to at least start a healthier diet and begin working out. I’ll begin by going on a little run in the morning and go from there. Getting a job it’s also somewhat important for this, because it would help me join a gym and start a diet that my family probably won’t follow with me.

My weight is something I’ve always struggled with. I win it really easily but it is quite hard for me to lose it. This created a lack of self-confidence for me for a long time, which has obviously affected some aspects of my life, like my difficulty in relationships (romantic or not). I want to become more confident in myself because that ultimately will make me happier.

When I do begin this journey, I’ll also start a series on this blog about it.

Take Care Of My Mental Health

This is a trickier topic and that could go on for a while. I’ll give you the shortened version though. There are people in my family with mental illnesses and besides my anxiety disorder, which I’ve discusses on the blog before, I have come to realize that I most likely suffer from something else. I do not want to clarify what because a big part of taking care of it is realizing what it is exactly that I have. That’s what I want to comprehend by the end of the summer. I do have my own idea of what it might be, considering family history, but I don’t want to say it is something now and then be wrong.

I’m definitely worried about this, as you might suspect. It is scary to know something is wrong with you. The goal is the get help and come to terms with it. I know it’s hard, some people I know were never able to do it, but I don’t want to follow the same path.

From all of these topics, this one is the one that I’m sure won’t be resolved by September. It won’t even be solved by the end of this decade. I do realize this is going to be something I’ll always struggle with, but I’m hoping and slowly but surely it will get better to live with.