Life Update & Future Plans

Happy Sunday! I’m so excited to finally bring you a new post this week. Life has been kind of crazy lately, with a lot of stuff going on around me, so it has been hard for me to find time with my computer. However, things seem to be getting calmer and settled now so here I am!

If you follow me on twitter you might already know this but…I finally have a job! I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am for this. Is it my dream job? No. I’m going to be working at a call center. Is it something I can see myself do for a long time? Not really. It is a start though and that’s all I really need at this point.

Back in July, I wrote a post about my goals for the end of the summer and not so long ago I admitted I was not able to do anything on that list in time and how disappointed/frustrated I was with myself. Now, I’m finally able to check “Getting A Job” off of that list. I know we are now in November and, trust me, I’m still mad this took me so long but I’ve been trying to look at the positive side of situations lately. That all glass half full and not half empty thing.

Having this job will give me the opportunity of saving money to go to college (hopefully by next year) and being able to buy things for myself. Not only this, but I think having my day filled with something will be good for me. Getting out of the house for a bit and having my mind busy with something is what I’ve been needing for a while.

What’s Next?

Now I want to complete the rest of my “summer” goals. I want to start my weight loss journey and work on my mental health. I know these two things are on my mind a lot and I need to change that. I’ve always had a hard time with handling these issues and I really want to change that. It won’t be easy but I need to at least try!

I also want to work on actually having a proper schedule. It’s no secret that I’m not really good with posting on time – for a lot of reasons – and with now having a job plus everything I want to do at the same time it will be tricky.

I’ve been thinking of maybe posting once a week, either Saturday or Sunday since I won’t be at work. I can work on my posts throughout the week and by the time the weekend comes around I’ll already have something in the works.

Besides this, I just want to relax! I’ve been feeling so stressed with many things for so long and I just want to find some way to escape from time to time. I don’t know what I’ll do yet but hopefully something will come to me soon enough.

I can’t tell that by December I won’t have a post about how I’m consistently disappointing myself because I won’t be able to live up to what I want to do, because maybe it will happen. What I can tell you is that if I do write that post I’ll upload it, get up and try again.

Getting Frustrated With Myself

Hey guys! So I really do suck, right? For any of you that actually follow my blog and specially to the ones that follow by twitter and saw my money tweets promising new content I apologize. I haven’t been on my blog for a while AGAIN and I’m actually pissed of at myself because I should really do better than this.

This time around I don’t really think it’s worth it for me to try to justify my absence since that’s what I usually do and then go back into hiding. I have been having a hard time lately – which I’ve discussed before – with feeling really depressed and there are some days where I just can’t even get out of bed and barely speak. However, I don’t want to use that as an excuse because I promised not only myself but you (my followers) that I would do better and be consistent and I’m failing…miserably.

It makes me incredibly angry because I love blogging and this isn’t a situation where I’m just a lazy asshole that doesn’t want to actually do this. I have so many ideas, goal and even half done drafts of blog posts. Unfortunately, I haven’t been on the greatest state of mind and it sucks. I feel like I’m letting you down and also disappointing myself! I want to be a good blogger/writer and I also want to do many other things that I haven’t even started and it’s my own fault! That’s the worst part to be completely honest, that I’m aware that I have no one else to blame but myself.

A while ago I wrote a post talking about my Personal Goals For The End Of The Summer where I discussed my desire to start a weight loss journey, get a job and better my mental health. It’s October now – summer is behind us – and I hate to tell you that I have not accomplished or even half accomplished anything on that post. I’m getting in my own way and I don’t know what to do about it. People in my “real life” haven’t been very helpful before and I don’t want to get disappointed by asking for help again.

So here I am at 18:30 pm writing this post to get all of this out of my chest. I’m not going  to make a huge post telling you everything that has happened to leave me in this state of mind because I don’t want to come of as a whiny girl but also it’s not even worth it. I know this post is not making a lot of sense but I’m just writing as things come to me and sometimes that’s just what you need.

As the title of this post says, I’m frustrated. Incredibly frustrated in fact. I’ve wasted my all gap year from school doing pretty much nothing but stay at home crying about everything that is wrong with my mind and now here I am. I’m going into my second – unplanned and unwanted – gap year and feeling lonely as hell. I got no one else but myself to blame for that though.

I’m now, as I’m writing this, also sending a few resumes to a couple of places. That’s good. I do believe that, maybe, getting a job will help be get off of my own head for a while and be distracted/busy most of the day. That’s what I need but unfortunately did not work on it sooner.

To finish this of I just want to say thank you to any of you for sticking around while I’m this big mess and hopefully next week I’ll have a better post to give you!

Thank you for reading x

Blog Updates & Goals

Hey guys! Today I decided to do something different and definitely more lighthearted than what you’ve seen on my blog so far. As you can tell by the title I’ll be talking about some updates for the blog, as well as some hopes and goals I want to achieve in the future. I already wrote about my Personal Goals For The End Of The Summer, where I focused on aspects I want to improve in my life, so I decided to write about what I want and am trying to improve on the blog as well.

This type of post is something I’m planing on doing every now and then – maybe once a month – because I think it’s not only interesting to see the evolution of The 20 Year Old Mess, but also discuss it with you guys!

For starters I want to thank you all for the support and for following along in my journey. I started this blog in June and the amount of love I’ve already received from the blogging community is incredible. I was absolutely terrified of starting this blog and having literally no one care about it. I obviously don’t do this just to have people read it but it is a nice feeling when people like or comment your posts and seem to be enjoying them.

How far this blog has come in just two month is crazy! I had tried to become a blogger before – had two other blogs before creating this one – but I wasn’t 100% in it, so seeing the difference now that I’m dedicated is amazing. I was also worried because I’m a 19-year-old, unemployed girl from Portugal and that no one was going to care about what I have to say.

Anyways, let’s get back to the point of the post…

How The Blog Has Evolved

When I decided to get back to blogging I was genuinely prepared to have two people see it and I was okay with it because the most important thing for me right now is to write things that I like or care about. However, the fact that I now have 30 blog followers makes me incredibly happy! I know it’s not a lot to most people but, for me, it almost feels like 3000 right now.

Recently, I also reached over 100 followers on Twitter – when I first started the blog I only had 46 – and most of my new followers are a part of the blogging community.

I didn’t have any other social media before I started The 20 Year Old Mess, apart from my personal Facebook and Instagram accounts, which I don’t use to promote anything blog related for a number of reasons. So, when I created this blog, I also created accounts to promote it and post anything related to it. I’m still trying to work on my Facebook Page and how to use it better, but my Instagram account just reached 200 followers.

So far I have had such a good experience with this blog and now I’m planning on working harder to make grow and create better content.

Update + What’s To Come

This past week I’ve been thinking on how to make the blog more organized and also brainstorming a thousand ideas for posts and other projects. This is what I’m planning for now:

  • Three posts a week and Post Categories

I know this is going to definitely be a push for me but I’ll be able to make it work. I want to be more consistent, since so far I’ve been posting in a non planned way and without a set day to post. I believe I’ll be able to keep this newly set rhythm until I get a job, then maybe I’ll switch to two posts.

As you can see, if you look at the Menu at the top of the blog page, I’ve created three categories: Personal ExperiencesOpinion Posts and Movie Talk. You can take a look at what posts are a part of what categories to have a better idea of what they mean. Each category will have its own day.

Tuesday belongs to Personal Experiences, Friday to Opinion Posts and Sunday to Movie Talk. However, Sunday will also be when I’ll post anything non related to any of the categories, which means that when that happens there won’t be a Movie Talk post that week. Also, when I do a post about a personal experience, sometimes it also ends up becoming an opinion post. That was the case – for example – of my last post Online Dating: Does It Suck Or Are We Just Bad At It?. When that happens then Friday I’ll post anything not related to any of the categories.

If there are any changes, such as an occasional switch of the dates or a delay, I’ll be telling you ahead of time.

Goals + Hopes For The Future

I believe that anyone that has a blog, has their own goals. Everyone has things they want to achieve, sometimes sooner and sometimes later.

I wanted to tell you about mine because not only could you help me with some but I also find it important for you to know what I see as the future of this blog.

  • Reach 100 Blog Followers (by September 24th)

I know not everyone likes hearing about follower goals, for some odd reason. I don’t see anything wrong with having your own expectations or having certain hopes for the future of your blog. Numbers aren’t everything – that’s true – but that doesn’t mean you cannot be happy with having people appreciate your work.

I would absolutely love to have 100 followers until my birthday, but if that doesn’t happen it will only be more motivation for me to work harder.

  • Become Self Hosted

One of the most important things for you to do when creating a blog is to become self hosted. I genuinely believe that. The most important reason is that you also become the one true owner of your content and have a lot more freedom.

However, I can’t do it right now. You do have to invest in it so, when I get a stable job, I’ll take the leap.

  • Create an Email Newsletter

I absolutely love the idea of having a newsletter for you, with exclusive content and much more. I do want to have a bigger following and have everything organized to create one first though.

  • Start making money from blogging

It’s actually funny: I have to get a job to become self-hosted and have more freedom and options when it comes to creating content and having collaborators, but I also want to start making money from blogging so I can make this my job. It’s really a full circle.

I’ve been reading a lot into the many possibilities you have to make blogging your actual job. I know it won’t be easy or a quick process. Because of this, I do want to take my time with this step and not rush into any crazy ideas I could not afford to try at the moment.

  • Collaborate With Other People

Honestly, there are so many options when it comes to this. Guest writing (someone for my blog or me for theirs), co-write with other bloggers, interview someone, work with brands…Nowadays bloggers can even become brand ambassadors and it’s amazing how many opportunities are out there. I’m excited to try a lot of them, since I love working with other people. It’s also great being able to collaborate with others, specially if everyone gains or learns something with that opportunity.

I would love to have all of this goals achieved by the end of the year.

What about you? What are your goals and expectations for the future of your blog? Let me know in the comments below!